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So much water under the bridge. There was Yom Kippor, which we attended a bit. Then some school, then an overnight visit to 300 Longwood. We seem to have a fallen into the sad pattern that afflicted us last spring.

The weather is very warm but heavy. Unable to go to any sukkah meals. We do plan do go to the Cape Saturday. Doesn't seem real. Not much sleep. Little hope.

Current Mood: sad

Cold this morning. I rode my bike to Leverett, then walked around. It was a good way to do it. The biking is of course better than driving environmentally, it's quicker than walking and I get some cardio. Still listening to The Brothers Karamazov with only 8 hours left. What a story.

We're getting ready for the high holidays. Time to cook and bake and re-enter the world after the summer. The trip to LA was a nice break, especially on top of the weekend in Provincetown. Away from here and no cooking or cleaning.

The trip to LA I will write about another day, but I do feel that it was a pivotal point at this time in my life. To be out in the world, on a plane, in a taxi, watching the sunrise on the other side of the continent after having been in this apartment for three years, that was really something. And all of the anxiety washed away. Put into action and preparation and spent. Drifting off over the city as I sat on the roof drinking an Aperol spritz.

"This is your life, you can go anywhere, Grab the wheel and own it, Drive it like you stole it"

Current Mood: mellow
Current Location: Saint Paul

I slept enough to dream last night. I've been averaging 6 hours, but instead of watching another Jessica Jones I went to bed with Ancillary Mercy. I had a wonderful dream about going to a club and hearing a jazz cello and piano piece by two luminous young musicians. It was one of those magical dreams where you feel as though you visited a real place. Very restful.

I seem to have survived another trip home without the weeklong spiraling sadness that knocked me out in October. Having my partner with me really helped, although I think it threw him for a loop. Next visit is Dec. 24, which is always hard because it's so confusing for my mother. We will tone it way down this year in terms of presents and chaos. Speaking of presents and chaos, I need to finish up my chanukah shopping. It's nice to have it early in the month so I don't have the Xmas panic.

Honey's in tech week for her play. Next week is the performance. She's done an amazing job managing the stress and workload. Tomorrow Violet is leading the Torah service so we have to be up early after staying up late watching TV.

My new winter hobby will be coming up with cocktails other than martinis to drink. I love them, but it's like taking a hammer to the head and it's over so soon and then you want wine and then HANGOVER.

Current Mood: content
Current Location: Muddy River
Current Music: Hamilton, NONSTOP

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