rivervox

Rainy morning. I walked a bit around the neighborhood after dropping off Violet but will do a longer outing when the sky and my calendar are clear. Little to report. Last night DH went to see Macca with his sister. I drove them and picked them up which turned into a long traffic nightmare. Got to bed late, up early for Z block and I'm running on fumes. We went to Rami's for dinner and sat outside which was nice. I also went out and sat in the park until sunset. That's a good practice. Better to sit there beneath the sky and do my crosswords than to huddle in here. Busy days and nights ahead. My review today. Lashing myself to the mast though I cannot see the shore.

Writing down the chaos. Rough night at the play. Huge crowd, big line, people too close. The show was very good, but it was too much for me. I came home and had some wine. Not looking forward to doing it again. We're having a storm that's cancelled school and may cancel the show tonight. While I will be sad for the cast, I could use the night off. Honey is on her way, if she can get her ticket changed and the flight doesn't get cancelled or delayed. Rough night of worry. Too many possibilities.

Get comfortable in the gray. Isnt' that what I'm supposed to learn to do? So thankful we're not releasing the site today. I make take the afternoon off to cook and try to relax. Focus on good outcomes but be flexible. This is a test of your emotional response systems. It will be over Sunday.
Calm blue ocean.

Still sitting watching the ceiling droop. After various missteps and inaction by the insurance company, nothing much has happened except that the contractor terrified us by saying we had to move out for a month starting Monday. That didn't happen, but it blew the weekend on anxiety and packing up our cabinets and closets as we prepare for demo. Still no word on what is actually going to happen. Trying to sit with it. Here in the mess. Demo tomorrow maybe? Plans next week. We hired a public adjuster to help us deal with negotiation. Outsourcing conflict is brilliant. Anyway, it's hard to think or work or relax as we deal with phone calls, air movers and boxes.

Honey is home for the day. She slept late and is enjoying Loki and real bagels on the couch. This was the most critical thing to me -- that she could come home after three weeks and a concussion and just relax. Next week we may be in a hotel, but we're here now.

I have been trying to walk but dropped the yoga. It's been chaos here but also, I no longer have a good time for it. Work has ramped up and DH is in the office, so I'm back on duty solo in the house.

I really wish they would kick us out so we could move into a hotel our house for a week. Just a place to breathe.