rivervox

Woke up (in bed ;-)) thinking about being embedded. How we are embedded in layers of identity and connection. In a body, with genetic code embedded with a instructions, connections, a descent map, in a family, in an ecosystem, in a location, in a community, in a society, in a belief system. On top of those layers we have affinities and preferences. External things that are all determined by those original embeds. A baby self swaddled like a burrito in layers of wrapping. Shielded or exposed as circumstances change. As the body breaks down, as people die, as we move, as racist ideas work against us.

Honey is embedded in Bryn Mawr. First day of class and facing some choices. She may not have gotten full credit for Trinity and that is frustrating. I'm sure she will work it out and be happily busy with All the Things. I'm sad not to see her every morning, but I know she's in the right place.

A quiet weekend, despite the big move out. Did some cleaning and sorting. Sat night we watched Spiderman 2 together. Finished Landscapers which was very strange but good. Violet and I were alone all day Sunday. We walked a bit. Had sushi and watched the The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society which was charming and full of familiar faces but lacked energy. Monday was a holiday, so we got to lounge about again. Got Violet her new coat, walked at Leverett and did some housework. We had our Tu B'Shevat seder at dinner and then watched the beginning of Selma.

We were going to make our usual MLK birthday cake, but Violet said that she wanted to do more now that she was older. I respect that. As long as we honor the day. I do miss singing We Shall Overcome. She found organizations for us to support on voting rights and criminal justice reform. New traditions.

Back to work now!

Busy days. Honey is here and we have lists and piles of clothing. At the same time we're getting ready for school to begin and have no place to move to next. Flight is tomorrow night. Fingers crossed. Can't rest.

I've walked with Honey at Kendrick two days. We went for bagels this morning. Last night we had sushi in the park in Brookline. Too many moving pieces right now. But we are safe and well. I realized that she's going back to school either way. Either choice is risky but one is a huge opportunity. There is no stay at home in Brookline option. Reminding myself that when one thing gets settled, I will feel better. Just...when is that going to be? 6 PM tomorrow I suppose.

This week I finished White Lotus which was interesting and I watched Siempre, Luis. I'm going to finish watching Pursuit of Love on my own. I need to make my own comfort in this sad house.