Not my circus
Mar. 8th, 2021 11:28 amA year ago, I sat in a restaurant and celebrated my husband's birthday. That's the last time, except for a trip to the bar with my cast mates. Unreal.
Pretty good weekend. Yesterday, Violet and I went out to Concord to the Great Meadows Wildlife Refuge. A beautiful place, with a causeway between two ponds in a marsh. Lots of people, mud and ice but it's so great to get out of town. I'm looking forward to going back as spring emerges, with proper boots on a week day.
Entertainment included the first episode of It's a Sin, which is excellent. Disappointing Wanda finale. Dead Poets Society and the first half of Star Trek IV. We had pho on Saturday, Spa food last night. Otto pizza tonight. Champagne! Beer! Cake! Clear Flour! Chocolate!
I need to get out for a walk today but there's so much to do with the Birthday.
Seeing some daffodils emerging. Watching for crocuses. Clouds lifting? It is one thing to vacation in a place. Quite another to live there. Was it a mistake?
Very weird dream which I knew was recurring. Some kind of event where people were turned into zombies/religious zealots. Had to board up windows in the House, prepare to flee or fight, but also knew it was magic and we had to save the day/switch it off. Buffy was involved. Neil and Amanda. We were up on a high ruin "temple mount" watching them march in. Deciding to run or to fix it. Woke up thinking I should have go bags ready for all of us. Bar the door and go out the back, like Fredegar Bolger. Feeling besieged I suppose. Only now realizing that some of it is from the stress of others. I'm managing their anxiety which has become part of the trauma. Trying to keep away from drama that doesn't affect me. Reclaim some calm space.
Pretty good weekend. Yesterday, Violet and I went out to Concord to the Great Meadows Wildlife Refuge. A beautiful place, with a causeway between two ponds in a marsh. Lots of people, mud and ice but it's so great to get out of town. I'm looking forward to going back as spring emerges, with proper boots on a week day.
Entertainment included the first episode of It's a Sin, which is excellent. Disappointing Wanda finale. Dead Poets Society and the first half of Star Trek IV. We had pho on Saturday, Spa food last night. Otto pizza tonight. Champagne! Beer! Cake! Clear Flour! Chocolate!
I need to get out for a walk today but there's so much to do with the Birthday.
Seeing some daffodils emerging. Watching for crocuses. Clouds lifting? It is one thing to vacation in a place. Quite another to live there. Was it a mistake?
Very weird dream which I knew was recurring. Some kind of event where people were turned into zombies/religious zealots. Had to board up windows in the House, prepare to flee or fight, but also knew it was magic and we had to save the day/switch it off. Buffy was involved. Neil and Amanda. We were up on a high ruin "temple mount" watching them march in. Deciding to run or to fix it. Woke up thinking I should have go bags ready for all of us. Bar the door and go out the back, like Fredegar Bolger. Feeling besieged I suppose. Only now realizing that some of it is from the stress of others. I'm managing their anxiety which has become part of the trauma. Trying to keep away from drama that doesn't affect me. Reclaim some calm space.