rivervox

Well, we made it through the weekend. I got the house ready. Plenty of food. Seders were OK. We did the second night with Karpowitz family. Tried to find Red Velvet cake mix but failed in the attempt to buy it in Natick. Hopefully next year I'll just walk into Stop and Shop and stock up. Funny but I don't want to do seder in person. I don't want to do "in person".

Working on sleep, exercise, good food and positive vibes but my mood is still heavy. I try to find my usual joy in daffodils and crocuses, but I don't feel it. I guess this is what depression feels like. Or deadens feels like. Looking at the Stop & Shop website upset me because it reminded me of the Cape. Seeing the sunset reminds me of the Cape. I do not want to see the ocean. Heartbroken still. I'm glad that we had several weeks here before Passover, otherwise I think I would have collapsed. Once Pesach is done, I should be able to rebound a bit. My vax and my birthday are coming up. Ramping up projects at work has left me feeling like a kid trying to jump on a spinning carousel.

Flirted a little bit today with getting an MLS degree at Simmons. That might actually be a better path to take at my age than trying to stay in IT.