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No Going Back Now
Oct. 9th, 2022 11:39 amHoney is home for break. The kids are going to Sing Street today. We're getting ready for Sukkot. No sukkah this year but we will try to be outside as much as possible. DH and Honey will go to shul each day. It's very nice to be together even though we have space restraints in the apartment.
I'm glad to have the extra time off and to have both kids home while we deal with the health situation. It is really affected me and I've found like that it's like grief. It wells up in the evening or when I'm idle. Loss, change, fear. A dark room which we are entering step by step, never sure how much floor there is. It's not going to be cured or "get better". The only improvement will be our getting better at dealing with it. I'll stop here.
Not sure if I'm going to continue with FoPA. Feeling tapped out. And constricted by needing to stay home and vigilant.
Enough. The sun is up, the leaves are yellow, we have the resources we need to survive.
I'm glad to have the extra time off and to have both kids home while we deal with the health situation. It is really affected me and I've found like that it's like grief. It wells up in the evening or when I'm idle. Loss, change, fear. A dark room which we are entering step by step, never sure how much floor there is. It's not going to be cured or "get better". The only improvement will be our getting better at dealing with it. I'll stop here.
Not sure if I'm going to continue with FoPA. Feeling tapped out. And constricted by needing to stay home and vigilant.
Enough. The sun is up, the leaves are yellow, we have the resources we need to survive.
