And if we're here long enough we'll see it's all for us and we'll belong

Weird day. Got lots of sleep, but had to take Violet to school this morning, then on a bagel and coffee odyssey. Fun to be out and about but it wrecked my schedule. It's very warm today. Feels good to be out in sneakers and a sweatshirt. I hope to ride my bike tomorrow morning.

It's very stressful to be here and my skin is thin. I find I need more space and quiet to keep it together. Last night I just read The Kingdom of Back until bedtime. Very sick of sitting in my chair.

I noticed that we call space craft "ships" and use naval terminology. Realized that space "ships" were created before airplanes existed, so that's the model. Also, aircraft don't travel for months or years at a time and carry hundreds of people and stuff, so the nautical metaphors works. For now.

I've also noticed that my sense of time is not just wobbly, it's wrong. I've lost my bearings on how long ago something occurred. Twice now I've looked for work things and thought they were two years or six months ago when they were actually more recent. That internal chronometer is busted. Probably normal but disorienting. Write everything down and date it. Feeling like Piranesi.

Tea, writing, music. Hang on.