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I got my Ranger status in Trailhead today. It feels good to have achieved it, even though some of the modules are silly and too easy. There are still trails I want to conquer and I need to get certified! It seems more possible now, although the new website is going to ram into my schedule. It's good to do Trailhead everyday to get me in the mood.
Yesterday and today, I have delayed going outside and it's not a good idea. I need that AM walk. This week it's because Violet is home and I hope to go on an outing with her. But a long afternoon outing is no replacement for the morning jolt of a walk, even just around the block. We'll be back on schedule next week, but I shouldn't forget.
There was a good article in the NYT about Languishing, which is not quite depressed but treading water. A very good description of where I am these days. I'm much better than last week, but still not myself.
Weird experience on facebook this AM seeing a post from an old friend. Who is now a little too close and not someone I really want to deal with again. I still haven't called my other friend. Partially because I hate the phone, but also because it's uncomfortable territory. There is a wall between my past and my present that I do not wish to break. Always seeking to make my world smaller. But why is it so hard? Is it dissonant? It's not like I was some other person back then or did terrible things. I'd like to resolve to call one person every weekend. Will I do it? Stay tuned.
Yesterday and today, I have delayed going outside and it's not a good idea. I need that AM walk. This week it's because Violet is home and I hope to go on an outing with her. But a long afternoon outing is no replacement for the morning jolt of a walk, even just around the block. We'll be back on schedule next week, but I shouldn't forget.
There was a good article in the NYT about Languishing, which is not quite depressed but treading water. A very good description of where I am these days. I'm much better than last week, but still not myself.
Weird experience on facebook this AM seeing a post from an old friend. Who is now a little too close and not someone I really want to deal with again. I still haven't called my other friend. Partially because I hate the phone, but also because it's uncomfortable territory. There is a wall between my past and my present that I do not wish to break. Always seeking to make my world smaller. But why is it so hard? Is it dissonant? It's not like I was some other person back then or did terrible things. I'd like to resolve to call one person every weekend. Will I do it? Stay tuned.
